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Update: spelling and grammar, word change as well but it's not a big deal so don't bother rereading if you already have read it. Hey guys. I know it's been awhile and you all probably thought I was dead or perhaps you didn't notice at all and that's fine too lmao. Well luckily, however, I'm not dead, but I was extremely nervous writing this. The reason for my absence is a long story, I might make another post explaining it idk, but in short, it was supposed to be a break but well, that didnt happen. I had trouble with my health, family, money, school, gender, etc. I was hospitalized for my mental illnesses to but I'm getting better. If you

dumb freaking vent, nobody even really cares but i need to write it... haha it's funny, when i was a kid, i hated going to the doctor so much.... now going to the doctor is like heaven to me, even yet, i still get disappointed in the end. i wish i had someone to talk to about my health but everyone either doesn't believe me or they tell me stop complaining or heck, they just don't listen. i wish they could find out what's wrong with me instead of just having an estimate... i honestly don't know how long i can hold on until i break down, which is gonna be soon because i am so tired of being alive. i'm so sad and i've tried everything. i just

uh well, i might not be able to trick or treat after all... we're having a severe flash flood here, i'm so mad. my whole yard is flooded and it's been raining for 3 hours. :/ i was really looking forward to it to, but i guess i can't have good things in my life, haha.... just thought i'd share this because i need to rant.